i wanted to have my blog to have a new kick on it. since it is so avail, i started to browse some new templates awhile ago then found some good ones that i like.

at first, am just trying to preview the templates and see if how would my blogsite look like kung maganda ba sya or hindi. am not really saving it. hanggang preview lang ako eventhough am changing or editing the html here.

may nakita akong isa which is an iPhone template. eh fascinating sya so i tried it. it looked ok so i thought it would be wonderful if i'll have that as my template so i saved it.

ang hindi ko alam, mawawala pala ung mga widgets ko. dun na nagsimula ang trip ko going to Calvary. even yung sa mga posts ko, nawala yung mga links on the bottom part including the date and time on when a post was created.

guys, am reconstructing this ah. please bear with me.

i hope that this weekend would not be at worst like this.

it was 2 months ago wherein there was an incident na napagkamalan akong isang bayaran. in short, callboy.

i was about to go to work, one night, and just waiting for a jeep to arrive. siguro after 10 minutes, may dumaan na white pajero at nagpark sa harapan ko. i was wondring kung bakit sa laki ng daan and of all the places wherein he can park his pajero, sa tapat ko pa.

after a minute or two, bigla nyang binuksan ung mirror nya then told me, "sakay na."

nagulat ako and told myself, "do i know him? mukha bang nakikihitch ako? may pera naman ako ah". to my surprise, ang nasabi ko lang is "am sorry?"

bigla syang nagsalita at ang sabi ba naman eh, "bakit, magkano ba?"

from then on, alam ko na inakala nya akong callboy. i just told him na, "sorry, am not who you think i am. and besides, i already have a boyfriend and faithful ako. sorry ha." at nagsorry pa ako. at yun lang din ang nasabi nya.

after that, of course i told that story to yaba and some of my officemates. bongga daw ako sabi ng officemates ko kasi hinihintuan daw ako ng pajero. at first, i felt flattered na isang naka-pajero ang humihinto lang para saken at gusto pa akong bayaran pero ngayon, natakot na ako kasi iba na.

tuesday night. as usual, was about to go to work, one night, and just waiting for a jeep to arrive. after 10 minutes ulet, dumaan nanaman sa harap ko yung the same pajero sa huminto before. looks like he's going towards Kalentong tapos nagulat ako nung bigla syang mag-U turn then he parked his car a block away from where am standing. at sinesenyasan nya ako para lumapit ako sa car nya. he looked hesitant that time and parang pinipilit nya talaga akong sumakay sa pajero nya. buti nalang, may dumating na jeep.

sa harap ako ng jeep sumakay since wala naman nakaupo dun. pag daan ng jeep sa tapat ng pajero, sumisenyas nanaman sya para sumakay ako sa car nya. eh umalis din yun jeep so akala ko, dun na matatapos yun. but i was wrong.

sinundan nya talaga yung jeep na sinasakyan ko to the point na everytime na hihinto ung jeep for the driver to pick-up passengers, tumatapat talaga sya dun sa harap at sumisenyas paren sya saken.

i was so afraid at that time thinking, "anu ba ang kailangan sakin nito? mukhang masama ang tama sakin."

the chase had stopped bago dumating sa may tunnel going to pioneer. the jeep went straight ahead going to the tunnel tapos sya, pumanik na going to Boni.

he scared the hell out of me. i think he's around his late 20's or early 30's but though he looks cute and decent, nakakatakot parin ung ginawa nya. abot talampakan ang kaba ko nun and it made me have this phobia for white pajeros adjacent to a jeepney.

chase after the jeepney just to be hooked up? desperado ba sya? hindi naman ako gwapo ah.

pero isa lang ang alam ko kung bakit ako nagpakatatag sa tukso: mahal na mahal ko ang yaba ko at hindi ako gagawa ng kahit ano na makakasira ng relationship namin. uy, sweet lang.

last saturday, nagpunta kami ni yaba sa Cavite to celebrate 2 birthdays. birthday ng one year old ko nang niece na si Yesha saka birthday ng love na love ko na si ta-Balot.

it was a swimming party that was held somewhere in Dasmarinas, Cavite. infairness, margarbo. sabi kasi, sponsored by TFC daw yung party. nagbigay kasi yung relatives namin from the other side of the world ng budget para dun sa party kaya sponsored daw by TFC. kaloka.

the food was great. galing kasi magluto ng mga relatives ko. from my lola up to her siblings, marunong magluto. the menu was to its simplest. may spaghetti, menudo, grilled chicken and pork at bongga kasi may new addition to the menu: crispy pata and sizzling squid. meron din dalang pancit malabon ung boyfriend nung pinsan ko. uy, palakas.

i was so full at that time na parang every minute, kumakain ako. hindi ko tinigilan yung crispy pata, to the point na bones and all talaga. kebs na kung ma-high blood! sarap kumaen eh!

eventhough we don't have enough sleep that time (since galing kami sa shift nun), nag-swimming kami ni yaba kaso we let the sun set first before we dipped ourselves into the pool. ang lamig ng tubig! sa shower palang, malamig na yung tubig. lalo na yung pool.

it was just a couple of minutes nung nagswimming ako. parang wala kasi ako sa mood nun. at si yaba, ayun nagbabad ng nagbabad sa tubig. i really don't know but i wasn't really at a good mood to swim that time. instead, uminom nalang ako ng uminom but i didn't got to a point na intoxicated ako. even tipsyness, hindi ko naramdaman though we didn't have enough sleep at that time.

nandun kami sa resort 'til 5:00 PM then umuwi na kami. of course, wala naman ibang pupuntaha. the resort was so close at home that it's proximity could be measured like Ayala to the end of Buendia corner Edsa. taray di ba?!

yaba and i got a bit disappointed when we found out na disconnected na yung internet sa bahay namin dun sa Cavite. wala naman daw kasing masyadong gumagamit kaya the connection was terminated. kala pa naman namin, we could upload the pictures already. sayang, papakita pa naman namin sa inyo yung pictures. wala kaming nagawa kundi manood nalang kami ng TV till 7:00 PM hanggang sa nag-aya na akong matulog. sobrang pagod nun that when i jumped in between the sheets, tulog agad ako.

ang saya naman ng pagkagising ko kasi my lola prepared me my favorite breakfast: tutong ng sinangag. sobrang sarap nya to the point na naubos ko talaga ung isang plate. may natira pang menudo saka bits of crispy pata from the birthday so enjoy ang almusal. ang crispy nung tutong. namiss ko na agad. the best talaga.

nung lunch naman, it was nilagang pork that was served. ang sarap nung sabaw. nakakamiss talaga ung lutong bahay nila lola.

can't wait to celebrate christmas there. ang dami nanaman sigurong pagkain nun. i hope my yaba can celebrate christmas with me there para ma-experience nya yun.

most of us are afraid of something. it may be usual or unusual for some pero there is a certain thing that will sweat the hell out of you.


sa ngayon, marami na ang kinatatakutan ng mga Pilipino: sudden rise of the prices of basic commodities including rice, gas and utilities, disaster-related accidents, felony-related incidents at ultimo Chinese milk, kinatatakutan natin.


but at some point, meron talaga tayong specific fear sa mga bagay-bagay around us. here are some to name a few:


1. Agoraphobia (fear of open or public spaces)
- ibig sabihin, ayaw mong pumunta sa puntahan ng maraming tao like sa mall, sa mga park.

2. Xenophobia (fear of stangers or foreign people)
- ayaw mong makakita ng mga foreigner at parang feeling mo, kakainin ka nila ng buhay.

3. Acrophobia (fear of heights)
- hindi mo gustong magtrabaho sa mga high-rise building at ayaw mong tumambay sa mga rooftops para mag-yosi.

4. Claustrophobia (fear of Santa - no not really - fear of enclosed spaces)
- simple lang. hindi ka sasakay sa elevator dahil feeling mo, stairway to heaven na sya.

5. Social phobia (aka “social anxiety disorder,” fear of social situations)
- hindi ka friendly at ayaw mong makisalamuha sa ibang tao.

6. Arachnophobia (fear of spiders)
- tulad ko, ayaw mong makakita lalo na yung makahawak ka ng mga spiders.

7. Homophobia (fear of or contempt for lesbian and gay men)
- dapat talaga silang matakot samin.

8. Photophobia (abnormal sensitivity to or fear of light)
- abnormal talaga ang mga taong ayaw ng ilaw. they would just like to be sulked in the sun.

9. Triskaidekaphobia (fear of the number 13)
- Dessa, matakot ka na daw kay 13. sige ka.

10. Commitment phobia (coined in a 1987 book, usually refers to fear of committing to a permanent relationship)
- nakakahiya. puro Fu-Bu lang ang gusto ng mga taong ito. gud luck.


Oh, isa ka ba sa mga taong merong listed sa taas? kung meron ka, eh ano ngayon? it would not make you a lesser person, right?

but always remember, the only thing to fear is fear itself.

(for an almost-complete list of phobias, visit http://www.phobialist.com/)